Me Party

I spent the latter half of 2011 with my head out of the music industry cloud. I’ve been luxuriating in a stress-free world of science fiction and artificial intelligence. I’ve been reading and writing more than anything else. But then the year turned to 2012 and I realised I would soon have to remove my head from the clouds and return to planet Earth.

With this came an odd realisation: Should I spend so much time on writing fiction? Or should I try to make music? The logical side led me to a classic dead end: “Well, Natalia, whatever you choose, it will be a terrible way to sustain yourself.” Which I naturally shrugged off. I am in too deep to worry about something as stupid as money. 

Instead my head floated off into another cloud. A creative cloud, wondering how to preserve my dignity but still have fun with it. I’m no songwriter, and therein lies the problem. I have no confidence from being surrounded by actual songwriters. In fact, shoddy songwriting is one of the things that maddens me the most about popular music. And by popular I don’t mean only Pop, rather all the inescapable musicians, the stuff in the “press.” It adds to the argument that there are too many bands, too much mediocre music, everybody wants to be a star but they rarely know why.

A bonafide songwriter knows. They know because they have no other choice. They aren’t rebelling against their parents or doing it because they can (i.e. rich kids). They are doing it because they have to. I know, you guys are reading this saying: “Oh, whatever. As if.” But it’s true. Or at least it used to be true. What is popular these days, what comes up through the ranks, is not based on good songs or incredible inspiration. It is half-assed and financially backed. And all that is fine. It’s cute. I guess it is what people need in an age where great marketing rules the roost.  

But this rant has been ranted before. Which is why I keep my head elsewhere: this is wasted breath. Wasted bandwidth. I’m exhausted by it, by the rules, the gatekeepers. I know. I get it. I’m not getting in.

So then, why not make something frivolous? I ask myself. Why not fall in line and further saturate the music world with more gratuitous art? Should I do something I firmly believe that I have no business doing? I wouldn’t make it for primarily for you, but for me first and you second. Would that offend you or interest you? Would you download it? Would you pay for it? Would you want to hear it? 

And PS: don’t panic. These sentiments have nothing to do with The Dears. The Dears are alive and well. We’re just staked out in a bomb shelter living off of rations and bottled water.

 

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4 thoughts on “Me Party

  1. Hello Natalia. I truly believe that everything we do is “me first and you second”. Even if we do something about other people, that’s because “we” feel good doing it.
    So my humble opinion is that you have to do anything that makes you happy and feel comfortable with yourself. It doesn’t matter if it gives you a lot of money or if it’s supposed to “be ok” because you’ve been doing it for a while now. Everyone should stop doing things don’t make them happy and start doing things enjoyable, at least that way we should find more smiles around for a change.

    Hope this helps a little. Greeting to all in the bomb shelter 😉

  2. I think the answer, if you want to make something, is to just do it regardless of whether you think it has value. Leave it up to the listeners to decide whether they want to listen to it or if it is worthwhile. Never forget that plenty of great popular music was written in a throwaway spirit!

  3. The world is full of point of view…each of us understand and experiences this world differently..we can only sincerely share our achievements..and not take things too seriously 🙂
    Follow your heart !
    Pat

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